Reflection on life

For one year I have been learning to live my life without Bill. The lessons have been difficult to accept at times because I have wanted to determine my own path and have been resistant to the reality that I am alone.

What I know now, that I hadn’t fully understood before, is that I can waste precious time wishing things were different, wishing time would stand still as I relish a tender moment, or wishing time would pass more quickly as I anticipate a happy event.

All the mysterious gifts of Life are presented to me in each moment if I can learn to pay attention and be in the now. I am so grateful to be in a place where Nature reminds me daily in the blossoms, in the leaves on the trees, in the rippling brook, in the meow of a cat, and in the warmth in the greeting of a passer by, that life is continually renewing us. I am filled with gratitude for the gift of memory and choose to be happy while carrying the Love that continues to sustain me in my heart. I will honor that love and honor Bill while cherishing each moment by choosing a healthy and joyful life.